I am the GREAT I AM

I am more than just a lonely figure on the far facing reaches of the earth
I am man, I am in a continual state of rebirth
I am born of this soil, bone made of rock, and body moulded of clay
I take form in the silent empty thought; behold all creatures I announce the break of day
And at noon time, I am risen. I am alive and bask in the light of the Sun
Our energies exchange as we circulate and radiate for indeed, the Sun and the Son are One
I take shade and rest under the branches of a tree, and as I eat of its fruits and nourish my body I know that the tree is a part of me
I am man, moved by the flow of life, the constant fountain of joy
I dance and I sing with gratitude for the creation, I am here to enjoy

And at dawn as I sit by the waters edge and contemplate who I am
I know that I am more than mortal
I am the GREAT I AM

Tarryn Tomlinson (2009)

How to get the best results while waiting.

                                                     Tick-toc, tick-toc, toc goes the clock

I hate delay, I cannot stay

my thoughts run a muck

If only I can find a way to make it move my way

And all the while it sits there, firm as if to stay.

Tick-toc, no luck, tick-toc, no luck !!!

                                                               In this pic: Emma Scarafiotti

This morning i felt my patience REALLY been tested! Especially since I really have been patient, and it seems that the more patient I am, the more 'certain' people think that I can wait!
So as you can imagine I was about to blow a gasket, and call whoever I could to get the situation sorted out when I realised that I had been given a chance to practice what I believe. And to practice what I believe consistently.

So when one tries to foster a virtue, especially one like patience, it is important to understand that to truly feel OK with waiting, a higher perspective is needed of the situation.

I believe in the universal principle of right timing, now although I am not referring to any particular religion, it is a principle that can be found in all religious disciplines. It is a universal principle that in today's world of striving is very hard to align with.
I believe that there is a perfect timing in this universe for everything. I believe this because I have experienced synchronicity many, many times. After the synchronistic event has taken place I always marvel at the chain of events that had to take place at the exact time at each link of the chain. I always marvel at the perfect coordination and try to puzzle the pieces of chance in my mind, 'If I had not missed that bus, or if we had not lost that booking or if I had not turned back to answer the phone'. I also know that I could never coordinate life so precisely, at least the limited, rational, impatient part of me. I think the reason why fostering patience is so hard is because:

1. We are not aware that we live in synchronistic harmony.
2. We do not know that everything is in harmony and if we just let go, everything falls into place.
3. We live in the times of instant gratification.

Because we do not know or believe in the principle, life can seem very scary and stressful as we try to do it all ourselves. We perceive ourselves as detached from everything around us, and find it very hard to believe that the universe could be working on our side. But it is! We need only look at nature, everything in nature has it's perfect time. Nothing strains and struggles, and that is because harmony is the nature of God.

So how do we put this principle into practice? Here are some thoughts for you to ponder that could help you get the best results while waiting. Think about this before you find yourself in a situation where you have to wait, as you are likely to go back to your habitual way of thinking at that moment.

• Write down all the synchronistic events that you remember. Feel the awe you felt when these events took place (It's important to feel the amazement)
• Realize that you hadn't controlled any of those events with your conscious mind. And everything worked out perfectly.
• Ponder the fact that such harmonious chance occurrences are not a one time event, but a life time event, which you can experience when you let go of the control.
• Start using affirmations which could help ground you in the moment such as; 'I am where I am and everything is OK' or 'Everything is working out in my favor' .

So after I noticed my anger, I switched from being angry to realising that these people where not in control of my life nor my future they are merely playing their part in the universal principle of perfect timing, and that although I can't see the reason, everything is working in my favor. And then I took a deep........ breathe. The situation cleared up 10mins after that.

Have courage for the great sorrows of life and patience for the small ones; and when you have laboriously accomplished your daily tasks, go to sleep. God is awake

Victor Hugo (1802-1885)

I love you, don't reject me.

I think I am going to be writing a lot about fear in my blog as it the only factor from which all discord stems. Today I'll be referring to the poem I posted on yesterdays blog, 'I'm afraid'- which speaks about the fear of success. Could one really have a fear of success?

At first glance the idea sounds rather absurd. I mean searching for success is what we all have been doing in one way or the other from the time we were little. You have to be successful at school, then university, then at work. You have to be a successful wife, husband, and especially successful parents. So at first I thought that the fear of success couldn't be a real fear. We are all striving for it daily, we all feel less than if we do not achieve it on some level. So we have a need for success, it gives us our sense of self-worth. But there is another need that I never took into consideration before. A need greater than our need for success.

The need to be loved and accepted.

Now if you grew up in a family where success and growth and prosperity were the norm. Where you saw your parents doing what they love and being successful at it. Where you were validated and appreciated for being the best you can be. Where you heard people speak highly of others who had achieved success, then this article isn't meant for you. And you are one of the lucky ones!

This article is for those of us who grew up in families and societies who dwelt in mediocrity. Now the thing about mediocre people is that they are good people, wonderful people who were conditioned by those before them to be mediocre. Now there is nothing wrong about these people other than that they hold captive those around them. If you grew up in a family in a society like this it is not very likely that these people have directly told you that success is bad, but they have told you indirectly. Do you remember any of these sayings or situations?

"She's such a nerd, just studies all day. That's why she can't find a boyfriend"
"His money has gone to his head"
"I see he bought a new car, of course just to show off"
"I mean who does she think she is"
" He mustn't forget where he came from"
"That one always wants to fly high"
"Finish school and go work"
"Stop keeping yourself what you are not"
"Just be normal!"

And the list continues. And we all know that at sometime or another we have smiled and agreed with the person saying it, even though it felt wrong inside. Or we were the ones saying it.
So why does what other say effect us so much?
Even if what is being said is not directed at us, what is being said is registered in our minds. And what is been registered is that; success is bad. Nobody likes people who are successful. It's wrong to have more than others. I should not want more than what I have. It is not spiritual to have material comforts. My friends won't like me anymore if I don't act like them.

Making the pact
So because all human beings want is too be loved and accepted, we begin to form unconscious pacts with those around us.
All pacts have a common thread that says: I love you and I don't want you to reject me so I will behave in a way that will unify and not divide us, in thought, word and deed.

I love you, don't reject me

And so instead we reject ourselves. We reject our passions and dreams. We make ourselves feel bad for our dreams and for our preferences. And if we have managed despite our pact to have some success, even the minimal, we spend the rest of our lives feeling guilty about it. We tend to allow people to use us, we overcompensate by being too nice, by doing too much, by accepting abuse, and by not accepting anything good from life. Or we do unto others as was done unto us. We reject people who follow their dreams, because who are they to believe to be worthy of more than us? Do they not know of the pact of unity?

This pact of unity is based on a false spiritual perception that we are divided. But if we really knew that spiritually we are all one, that there is enough good and love to go around for everyone and that my sisters success is mine! Oh what a glorious, creative, exciting, joyous place this would be......

I'm afraid.....

“Our deepest fear is not that we are inadequate. Our deepest fear is that we are powerful beyond measure. It is our light, not our darkness that most frightens us. We ask ourselves, Who am I to be brilliant, gorgeous, talented, fabulous? Actually, who are you not to be? You are a child of God. Your playing small does not serve the world. There is nothing enlightened about shrinking so that other people won't feel insecure around you. We are all meant to shine, as children do. We were born to make manifest the glory of God that is within us. It's not just in some of us; it's in everyone. And as we let our own light shine, we unconsciously give other people permission to do the same. As we are liberated from our own fear, our presence automatically liberates others.”

Marianne Williamson

Your nose and his sense of security.

What is it about us women, that makes us think that we are not worthy because of the way we look? I was chatting with a girlfriend the other day, when she was mentioning a bunch of her physical imperfections and how if she had the money she would redo her nose, her breasts and her legs etc etc. We then proceeded to have a conversation about men, and she started moaning about how it is impossible to find a good man or any man for that matter of fact.

I felt like hitting her on the head with a book, and saying, 'Of course it's impossible for you to find a man. You hate yourself! If you can't find something in yourself worth loving, what chance does a man have of finding something in you worth noticing?'

I have to admit that I too was a woman who thought that a man could only love me because I had something physical to offer. And of course what I thought I had to offer was not alot, as my list of imperfections left only the adoration of my ears.

I then started to love myself and realise that who I am is not a list of physical features. I mean I had a long list of great qualities such as; I am kind, intelligent, compassionate, supportive, faithful, loving, joyful, a good listener, a motivator, funny and a whole lot more. I still have alot to work on but I began to realise that all any human beings want is to be loved, supported and appreciated for that which they are. This is what it means to love and be loved. Somehow we lost this perspective.

We women love watching chick flicks, and we love the romance of it all. So I ask you this. Have you ever heard the lead male character tell the girl, 'Your nose gives me a sense of security' or 'Your hair makes me happy' or 'Your thighs makes me feel like a better man'? No!

Who you are gives value to another human being, not what you look like. Come on girls there are a whole lot of men in this world who are waiting to be loved, supported and appreciated for who they are. This is a job way too important for boobs, small or big!

If you are looking to have a more meaningful relationship you gotta step out of the shallows, and fall in love with yourself first.